This is My Journal

So I had a mini freak out this morning. I thought my first payment for my student loans was do sometime this month and I had to find out when. I have to figure out what I'm doing about these payments. I think I can do one or two right now but after that I wont have any money. I'm unemployed and thinking about going back to school. I can't really afford to pay back my loans. I need to find a job and I need to decide what payment plan I'm going to use to pay of the loans. I think the best one for me right now might be to defer but I'm not really sure. The plan the president instituted might be the the best option in the long run. There the payments are dependent on how much money you make and sense I'm currently not making any... but yeah I need to decide what I'm doing with that.